[Narrator] I'm gonna share with you
my personal break-up story, so let's get into it.
(dramatic rumble)
When I was in the 10th grade I met this beautiful girl
named Nicky and I remember she had long brown hair,
dark brown eyes, she had one of the warmest smiles
that you could ever imagine.
She really was the whole package, she was smart, athletic,
funny and the only reason why I was even talking to her
in the first place was because she was my brother's
girlfriend's best friend.
And I didn't make a move on her at that time
because I had no self-esteem or confidence.
I remember during that first month of school
so many guys wanted her but I remember
two guys in particular who really, really liked her.
And they were the captains of both the rugby team
and the rowing team.
And after she got to know them she eventually ended up
choosing the captain of the rowing team.
And this guy was tall, he was a senior,
he had blonde hair and blue eyes.
He was a stereotypical good-looking guy.
And during their relationship Nicky and I became
better and better friends and she would tell me
all the things that she didn't like about Mr Blue Eyes.
Like how he wasn't very caring, he wasn't really that funny
and he just wasn't that great of a guy overall.
And he also really didn't like how much she was talking
to me, which I honestly don't really blame him for,
I really was playing that stereotypical guy friend who,
you know, obviously secretly liked her.
But after a couple of months the novelty of Mr Blue Eyes
wore off, and she broke up with him.
And throughout this time her and I became closer and closer
but just as friends.
And I usually don't really like the fairytale stories
like in movies where the shy friend somehow ends up
with the attractive girl, but the more time we spent
together the more we both started to care for one another.
And eventually she started to get feelings for me,
so I somehow, some way got out of the friend zone.
But despite the very obvious signs of attraction
that she was giving off I still was a very unconfident kid
and I simply was not able to make a move on her.
I didn't even know what making a move entailed at that time.
So she was the one who ended up making a move on me
and this move took place on December 31st of 2009
over MSN Messenger.
"Mitch, I have something to tell you."
"What is it?"
"I cannot really tell you over messenger."
"Uh, yes you can, just type it in."
"It's three words."
"Is it, I love you?"
"It's I love you, and I have for a long time."
And that is how we started dating,
over MSN Messenger in 2009.
And the next day we met up and we went on our first
official date.
And from that day forward we were basically inseparable.
And for the next three years we shared a lot of experiences
together, we supported each other as competitive athletes,
we were there for each other when tragedy struck,
we had a lot of first times together, and we would
even talk about our futures.
Like, we would sit there and talk about marriage, kids,
living together, and it all just way too intense
for a high-school relationship.
Nicky was also a very talented rower and she was offered
many full-ride scholarships to go to schools
in the United States, which was kind of a problem for us
because I was planning on going to school in Canada.
And I remember at one point she actually offered to stay
in Victoria for our relationship and to go to school
with me, and as much as I did want this
I knew she didn't really want that.
So I actually encouraged her to go away because I knew
that is what was best for her.
(dramatic rumble)
And it's now at this point in the story where things
start to get a little interesting and much, much more juicy.
(dramatic rumble)
Just before summer began, she committed to going to school
in the United States which meant we were about to embark
on the long-distance relationship.
And something that I need to mention is that Nicky had
this friend who was also a rower and his name was Liam.
And Liam kind of played a similar role as I did
in the beginning of the story, as being in the friend zone.
But the difference between him and I was that Liam
would try to actively break us apart because he was really
into her and he really didn't like me.
So when Liam found out about us trying to do long-distance
he saw that as an opportunity to pounce on our relationship.
And the reason why I know this is because
I did something that I'm really not proud of
and it's something that I'm pretty hesitant to even
bring up because, you know, it's pretty embarrassing.
But I guess this is me just being 100% transparent
with you guys.
So, this is what happened.
One day, Nicky and I were sitting beside each other
on my bed and I see that her phone was buzzing a lot.
And I look over at it and I saw all these long paragraphs.
So I say to her, "Jeez, who's writing, like, this
"long essay to you?"
And she says, "Oh, nothing, it's just rowing stuff."
And she really quickly puts the phone away
but as she was doing that I could see that the messages
were from Liam.
And then once she put her phone away she started to act
really weird and distant and quiet.
And I had known her for long enough to know
when something was wrong, and something was definitely wrong
and she wouldn't tell me what it is.
When Nicky left my house I did something very shameful
and I logged onto her Facebook account
to see what was going on.
And this is when something absolutely crazy happened.
Keep in mind, this is in 2011 and Facebook was still
kind of new, and there were still a few bugs on the website.
When I logged onto her Facebook account
she was also logged in and I could see that she was
in the middle of a conversation with Liam.
But the weird part was that I could see
everything that she was doing.
So, imagine you are watching a livestream of your girlfriend
on Facebook and you could see who she's writing with,
you could see where she's clicking.
You could see absolutely everything.
But before I could really see what they were writing
she clicks out of the conversation, goes to the chat history
of her messages with Liam
and deletes the entire conversation.
And then 10 minutes later I get a text from Nicky
saying, "I need to talk to you about something,
"are you free tomorrow?"
(dramatic rumble)
And when I read that text my heart sank, it was like
my sixth sense was telling me that something
really bad was about to happen.
I said, "Okay, meet me at 11 a.m."
So the next day comes around and I'm sitting
on the bench at my park waiting for her,
and I was just trying to prepare myself for the worst,
and then all of a sudden I see her car pull up
and the moment she got out of the car
and made eye-contact with me she bursts into tears.
Like, I'm talking, tears are rolling down her face.
Her face is swollen and then she runs up to me
and gives me a big hug and neither of us said anything
for a long time.
So after we both had calmed down a bit
I asked her what was going on.
And she told me that she had come to break up with me
and now that she was there with me she couldn't do it.
And she said to me that she wasn't even sure even if
she wanted to do it, which made it even more clear
that certain people, or a certain someone,
was convincing her to do it.
I'm not gonna go into too much detail
about our conversation but the end result
was Nicky not knowing what she wanted
and we both were just really confused.
After a few days of talking we ended up deciding
to stay together and to try long-distance.
But after that day at that park
something really interesting happened to me.
When she told me that she was thinking of breaking up
with me, the thought of a future that didn't involve her
was planted inside my brain.
And over the next few months that seed started to grow.
Back then, I had this huge fear of losing Nicky
and being alone, we both had relied so much
on each other for our positive emotions, like love
and happiness, and I think we both were really scared
that we wouldn't be able to find someone better
if we broke up, and this was especially a problem for me.
But when my fear of being alone and losing her
became a reality I realized that it wasn't as bad
as I thought.
Now, of course I was still really upset and sad
and probably borderline depressed at this time.
But I was still alive and breathing, and I think
a lot of people today are scared
that they're not going to be able to go on
and live their life if they lose a certain person.
Most people today get into relationships based on fear.
We fear the thought of being alone
or we fear the thought of being 40 years old
and being that weird, older person at that bar
still looking for love.
And we fear this so much that most of us end up
settling for someone who we may not even be the right match
for, or maybe we'll get to the arbitrary age of, say, 30 and
then we decide it's time to get married.
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